Forever Incomplete

I added a new song to my playlist. "Incomplete" by Alanis Morisette is a good theme song for me right now.

The song captures perfectly the realization that it is not the destination in life that matters, it is the journey. If we don't have struggles and trials how do we grow and learn? I have heard people say that there is nothing good about being fat....I know that without being fat, I would not have grown into the person that I am today. Being different has given me compassion for others who have to rise to their own diversity. It has helped me to become sensitive and caring and lots of the other things that I consider my "good qualities" are a direct result of having to overcome lots of obstacles because of my weight. I have tried to never let it hold me down.

So even though I am making a decision to change my lifestyle for the sake of my health and my family's healthy, I am not sorry for a minute that I have been fat my whole life. It has taught me lots about life--and my weightloss journey is teaching me even more.

Anyhow the lyrics are just perfect for the way I'm feeling right now:

Incomplete-Alanis Morisette

One day I'll find relief

I'll be arrived

And I'll be friend to my friends

who know how to be friends

One day I'll be at peace

I'll be enlightened and I'll be married

with children and maybe adopt

One day I will be healed

I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy

I have been running so sweaty my whole life

Urgent for a finish line

And I have been missing the rapture

this whole time of being forever incomplete

One day my mind will retreat

And I'll know God

And I'll be constantly one with her night dusk and day

One day I'll be secure

Like the women I see on their thirtieth anniversaries

I have been running so sweaty my whole life

Urgent for a finish line

And I have been missing the rapture

this whole time of being forever incomplete

Ever unfolding

Ever expanding

Ever adventurous

And torturous

And never done....